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Looking at it now, I still think it's an awesome title. This was supposed to be the title to my book. Like I say for most of the books I don't write, "What an awesome story it could've been." So what makes this blog special? Really, nothing does. Do people even read blogs anymore? Could I be assured that people are going to read this? I can't. Now I do have the power to make it engaging, and fun to read, but that just wouldn't fit my mood right now.

I'm hopeless, I got shitty grades and no where to go in life. Blah, blah, blah. So I'm the well meaning protagonist in this movie right? Wrong. This isn't my movie I'm living. You see, I'm the supporting actor to everyone's movie, waiting for the day the main character can stand on his own, and i can just be killed off. Depressing I know, but it's the simple truth at this point in my life. I'm 20 years old, and not much to show for it. I haven't had any control in my life, and seeing as it's my life, people only see it fit to blame me for it all. Of course it's not my dad's fault for overloading me with 2 jobs and 4 classes in college, and not my ex-girlfriend's fault for being so clingy. No, it was my fault cause I'm lazy and unmotivated.

You probably have no clue what I'm talking about, and that's okay. I barely do. All I know is I'm in a perpetual depression because I lost the love of my life, I feel an uneasy hopelessness because school as an option just isn't panning out, I don't have enough experience to get a job anywhere, and any career option I want just isn't feasible. What can I do? Nothing I suppose, but that just wouldn't be me.

The American Dream, the whole 2 story house, white picket fence, trophy wife, dog named spot, 2 and a half kids, that's the cliche we are all chasing. The life we all want to live. And that's what my blog is going to be about. The never-ending chase to that cliche. Of course that's not the dream I want. I want to be a world-famous writer, i want to help people, i want to buy an island, build a ramshackle house and add on to that. When i see that it is a beautiful house, and there's nothing else left for me to do, i get out a gun and pull the trigger. Dark? Not really, it's all a part of my Kick-it list. That will be name of my blog tomorrow.

This blog is just a basic, get-to-know-the-dark-me. I decided to write this on behalf of something my best friend's dad said. That if i want to write, i should do a blog and apply to local newspapers. So this will be my journal... of sorts. Cataloging my days failing, or succeeding. Hopefully it's the latter. Maybe you can see the start of my new books. i just got a ton of them brewing.

But yeah. This is me. And I want to actually write in this one, not like in the last one where i started writing, and stopped a week later. I'm going to write everyday. I always have something to say. So hopefully you'll stop by more often and check out what i have to say. I do make some interesting points.

Reminder- next topic: The Kick-it List.